It's time to get back on the saddle... again!
It's been almost exactly six months since I last posted on this blog. I was too ashamed and embarrassed to come back. I haven't been eating well, and I've barely been exercising. And it shows. I've put on a lot of weight over the last six months, and I am not happy. I don't have many clothes that fit me anymore, and I really, really don't want to go buy more in bigger sizes. :( For those of you who really know me, you know this is something I have struggled with for a long, long time.
I've made a goal for myself, and it's a perfectly reasonable goal.
I want to lose 30 lbs before I turn 30. My birthday in in mid-August, 8 months away. 30 lbs won't put me at my ideal weight, but it will get me a whole heck of a lot closer than I am now.
I've made myself an inspiration page that I taped to my closet door. Unfortunately I deleted all the photos from my computer after I printed the page, and I'm having trouble finding the exact ones online again, so these will have to do. You'll get the point. :)
The first is someone with severe lower back pain, and next to it is someone doing cartwheels on the beach.


VS.
These images are important to me because it's telling me to choose. Do I want to suffer from this lower back pain my whole life? Or do I want to feel fit and alive, and be able to do active things?
The next picture is 5 lbs of fat vs. 5 lbs of muscle. I don't think I need to expound on that any further.

The next few pictures are things that I want to look forward to in the near future:
Being pregnant (at a healthy weight)

Having a relaxing vacation on the beach (where I am not embarrassed to wear a bathing suit)

And Running (without getting winded in the first 2 minutes)

The last thing is a big
'30'. I'm turning 30 years old this summer. 30 lbs by the time I turn 30 years old. I feel so young, but my body is starting to feel so old because I'm not taking good care of it. When I turn 30, I want to feel like I can do anything. I don't want to feel crippled and weak.
I haven't quite figured out, yet, how I'm going to tackle this. I know I need to take things one day at a time. I need to get into a regular exercise routine, and I need to make better food choices. Nobody can do it for me, so I better get going myself.